Post not related to the picture, but I thought these margs I made were super delicious and also super pretty lol •
It’s hard when you’re double the size of your boyfriend. Especially when society basically tells you it’s supposed to be the opposite. Ever heard of “boyfriend” jeans? Ya know.. that ones that are supposed to be fairly baggy on you.. like you got them from your “bigger than you” boyfriend? Not even sure I guess if that’s the intent but that’s how I took it and that’s definitely not the case for me. If I wanted to wear “boyfriend” jeans from my actual boyfriend.. well there’s no way I could even get them up my thigh. When you have the world, my anxiety, and so many other factors yelling at you in the back of your mind “youre supposed to be skinnier than your boyfriend!!”, it’s so hard not to think that my own boyfriend doesn’t like that I’m bigger than him, or like my curves, or maybe he’ll hope that someday I’ll work out and get fit. In my relationship before the one I’m in now (he was also quite a bit smaller than me), I always remember hearing comments from him like “wouldn’t you rather be healthy and toned?” And I remember thinking “am I not healthy because I’m heavier than you?” But instead I never said anything. I, of course, was not healthy then but it didn’t really have much to do with my weight. I weigh more now and I actually eat way better and exercise way more than I did. I am so so thankful to have found someone who is excited about my curves. He gets nervous and anxious if I ever feel bad that I’m bigger than he is because he couldn’t care less. He loves me for who I am, no matter my body weight, even if I gained 10 more pounds, I know he wouldn’t care about it at all. He wants to see me love myself and if that means I want to go on a diet, he’ll support me but never force me to finish or force me to exercise so I’ll shed some more pounds. He is encouraging and loving. Thank you Jon for helping me realize that my body is beautiful anyway.