Preggo pics from Dec 2011. My baby boy came a month early as an early Christmas present that year on the Eve of Christmas. Can't believe my baby boy will be 7 on Monday. Oof.
Doing my best to meet myself where I am at, every single day. Feeling the accumulation of all of the emotions this year. It was a year of contrasts for me, some of the brightest moments and the darkest days. Becoming a mother, and sharing myself and my life with my sweet Olive, has brought me more happiness and meaning than I can comprehend. I’ve had to let go of some of my identity, to make space for the woman and mother I’m becoming. And it’s been a bit scary and overwhelming at times.
Losing my husband’s mother half way through the year, Olive’s grandma, and my friend of 13 years, forced me to face some of my darkest and heaviest moments. And I’m okay. We survived the “unimaginable”. And we are even happy.
Losing my dearest and sweetest companion of 9 years suddenly last week, has pulled me back through a whirlwind. Pulling me back down into those dark and heavy and awful feels, that I thought I had overcome.
But then I am remembering, that life and growth and love and loss and healing isn’t linear.
Taking one step and one day at a time. And I’m welcoming those beautiful and endlessly happy days without guilt, and I’m also facing those dark and endlessly long days with compassion for myself.
So today I started my day with celery juice to clean my gut, a workout to boost those endorphins, and cup of Ibis coffee to warm my soul. Inviting a beautiful day ahead of spending time with my mom, and planning Olive’s upcoming first birthday party!
If you read til the end, thank you, and show me with some 💓. And now bring some ☀️ into your own or someone’s day.
Dis is Bingo! 🐺🌸😘💜💜💜💜💜💜Mama Bingo!💗💖 She was Roscoe’s “other” Mama! (That sweet cat has so many mamas!😂) When Emma passed, it was then just senior Bingo 🐺🌸and then newly adopted Mama Cleo 🐈🌸and her son Roscoe🐱. Well, Bingo🐺🌸was awesome! 💖💖💖Besides being a great walking partner, buddyand alarm clock ⏰ for the kids (kisses kisses 😘 ), she’d love up kitten Roscoe 🐱, too. She’d even “protect” him when Roscoe’s own mommy, Mama Cleo 🐈🌸would hiss at him when she just wasn’t being a brat, not in the mood for babykitten antics and wanted to be just left alone. (Postpartum???🙆🏻♀️😾😸) 😉She’d🐺 stand between her baby kitten 🐱 Roscoe and Mom Cleo 🐈 and growl at Mom Cleo!!! Heehee!! She was a good mama! I remember rushing in to see what was going on one day! 😂😱It was so funny! Both mom and Roscoe kitten looked at Bingo with different eyes from that point!!! 👀 👀 🙀🙀😻😾😹😹Mama Cleo better be nicer to her son bc 👿🐺🌸MamaBingo don’t like that! Senior Bingo 🐺🌸would let curious little Roscoe share her bed with her. Very very sweet.💞💞💞💞 #sweetdog#reminiscing#nostalgic#family#familyvisits#bringonthememories#wellitshappeninganyways 🙆🏻♀️ #dogdrinkingwater#waterfountaindog 💦💦💦 #walkies#bingodog#bingowasagirl-o #kidsfirstdog#firstdog#woof#cooldown#warmmemories#lovelydog#familydog
Sempre un tocco scintillante che non guasta mai 😍💎🤩
Siete pronti per il Natale ? 🎄 Avete già acquistato tutti i regali ? Io... 🥺 ... sono ancora in alto mare ! 🎅🏼🎁
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I graduated from college one year ago. Looking back, I wish I had walked at my graduation ceremony. I knew that certain people in my family were going to skip it, and I didn’t want to feel sad or lonely. I robbed myself of a happy day of feeling proud and accomplished, because I tied my sense of self worth to people who no longer wanted to be a part of my life. If I could go back in time, I would slap myself upside the head and say GO YOU DUMBASS. Don’t skip out on something that makes you feel happy or proud or accomplished just because some people don’t want to be a part of your life. Live YOUR life. It’s not for other people. #liveyourlife#reminiscing
I remember this scene clearly. We had been watching a mating pair of lions for about 2 hours then decided to head to the camp. I was very joyous to head back to the camp to watch the sun setting on the Enselweni river. As we came around the corner, we saw this huge giraffe. I was stunned at the beauty of it in the light of the setting sun while a pearl spotted owlet called in the distance. It was a moment I realized how much I love Africa.
2018 is short.
Sarcastically at the end of a year, you come to realise that a year can do a lot to a person.
Time goes even faster than you imagine.
Sometimes I wish if only we could rewind to the time when we first met.
I could be a little more aggressive.
I could choose not to miss the right person.
If only we haven’t been lead to that path we’ve been through.
I hate how it feels now.
Such a beautiful photo. From this year. Remembering my 1st year though. That first year is still the best year of my life so far and was unforgettable. Doing the Omega Program, which can be challenging but so fun and so worth it; coming to Jesus that year; making new friends. Not all friendships last, but they were still unforgettable nonetheless. I will always treasure my first year of college in my heart ❤